So this week has been pretty miserable. I’m 99% sure I just failed my fluids midterm, and my dynamics test is in two days. I’ve never put so much effort into my classes and gotten so little out of it. My study habits have gotten better; I’m in the library almost every night, and I’m actually doing work. Still, nothing gets completely finished, and it just adds on to the pile of stuff I need to do that won’t get done.

As I sit my classes this quarter, I continually wonder why I got into engineering in the first place. I was initially interested in cars, but it seems that everyone and their mom is interested in cars as well. This leads me to wanting something else, but I don’t know what that something else is. When I hear people from the industry talk about their jobs, it sounds awful. Sitting in a cubicle at Boeing going over meaningless drawings that won’t even make it to production is supposed to be the “dream job” of a mechanical engineer? Screw that.  At this point I just want the degree, but it’s hard to stay motivated because I don’t know what I want out of it.

I’m hoping that if I can just make it past the next two quarters, I’ll be done with the introductory mechanics. I’d like to think that the later classes will actually be enjoyable.